Day One: The New Beginning

Happy 2009!!! This is the time of the year that irks me the most because ppl make empty resolutions that 9/10 times they won't keep,and weight loss is generally in every persons list
. But despite the initial aversion I have to the idea, I am one of the masses and this whole 1/1/09 date makes me feel like I'm getting a fresher start, than say a date like 4/3/09- you get the idea.

So here's my new years resolutions:
1. To learn how to eat. Sound's simple, doesn't it. But not quite: while we have hormones like leptin to make us feel full or ghrelin to feel hungry, we ignore our natural cues and choose to overeat or starve depending on our ultimate aims. We deprive ourselves of basic nutrients like carbs or fats, all in the name of weight loss. I want to forget those ideas, and focus on what i want to eat, when i want to eat and how much my body thinks i should eat to settle into a comfy wegiht. If the weight is where I am now (which i doubt it will be) then I'll be ok. If it goes down, then that's ok too.

2. I want to become fit. I want to workotu and love working out. I do love the gy m and feel better because of it. And by the gym i mean any place where I can get physical activity. I can use dumbells at home, the sidewalk outside and the treadmill to get a perfectly good workout almost everyday. It's key to want to be toned, to motivate yourself. I don't want to be thin--lord knows, I'm made to be curvy and thick, but I want to be tight and right too :p

3. I want to accept my body as MINE and stop comparing it to others. I was made as a curvacous, strong, big hipped big breasted woman. And if i have to scream that off the top of mountain tops (although i don't know where i'll find those) to get myself to accept that--I will! I love the way I look most of the time, and I'm hoping that by treating it right, and nourishing it, and challenging it, I will also love it and the relationship between these things will be cyclic with the love causing me to treat my body well as well.

Ok so onto today specifically:
Weight today 168.5lbs. Not bad considering I was 171.5 on Monday after the holiday festivities. I'm going to try and keep it there by next Monday so I can say I had a 3lb loss. Before the holidays, Ih ad gotten down to 167, so I need to get back down there to feel like the holidays are over. But I'm making day to day progress.

Today I had some good and bad. The bad was that I took too long between meals, having breakfast at like 11am and lunch around 6. At 6 I was so hungry, I went out to dinner wiht friends at Vinny Testas Italian Restaurangt--too much bread, oil and fatty stuff. Then I came home and my mom had cooked me a dinner! I couldn't say no to her--she spent some hours cooking for me. And the whole family is here so I can't not sit at the dinner table ignoring them, and sulking if you know what i"m saying. So i sat there and had chicken. I didn't have rice, and I didnt eat too much during my second meal.I know the scale will show an increase and reflect today's indulgences. tomorrow I'll try to eat more frequently. But since I accounted for today and it's in writing, I'm going to forget about it and move on. Now I'm going to read and perhaps ichat with my man, and then go to sleep. Good plans for the night :D Starting tomorrow: Food Pics!