Why?

Why do I do this to myself. These past two weeks I have been drowning myself emotionally in foods and making terrible food choices regardless of the consequences. I'll have two good days and then a day like yesterday where I eat 3000+ calories and UNDO any healthy steps I've taken in the first place. I have been feeling overwhelmed and exhausted and just making bad food choices as a result. I need to wise up and go back to calorie counting because clearly this whole intuitive eating is backfiring in my face when I became emotionally strapped and need some sort of outlet. I want to feel good about my eating habits.

I think I'm going to food journal and for the next two days drink around 2-3L of water just to cleanse out whatever shit I put in yesterday. I'll update this post later but I just needed to vent a little bit to calm myself down and get out of this straitjacket of frustration.

Eats:
2 slices toast with 2 slices fat free cheese (90+50=140)
Medium nonfat latte (146 calories via Peet's Coffee website)